Felt the need to remove everyone “following” on X

What is my problem?

First, I respect women, I loved my mother, she was a very strong, Lay Speaker, I loved my wife and supported her dreams, I loved my daughter and did my best to guide her, I do not see women nor treat them as sex objects and never approached a woman or daughter this way. All women younger than myself are my daughters, there are my sisters and there are my mothers, this is just how I feel. My brothers are men of God regardless of faith and I wish those without faith to find it.

Being sent sex chat links was bothering me, that is not someone who wishes to “follow” me. Reported/Blocked.

Second, attempted smooth talking me out of personal information, is trespass and grounds for immediate blocking. Blocked.

Third, I was told the same identical story by three accounts, from Singapore, 32, here in USA for 5 years. Blocked.

Fourth, “following” just to keep an eye on me as an enemy. Blocked.

I was unsure of anyone else and it was fair to message “followers” to “unfollow” and warn I am about to say things they may want no association with.

That is when I knew it was best to lock down and block everyone.

My problem with self destructive mentality is because I can not understand why people can not live and let live.

I do not play well with others, the effort required to remain nice is paramount, when so called friends and neighbors repeatedly take out their aggression up to and including calling for the death of my race.

Facts:
My education curriculum was attacked leading to my first ruin.
My mistakes led to an unjust criminal record causing life long ruin, no one forgave and no one gets a second chance, I have to apply to 100 jobs to get one response and the interview usually results in high pressure anxiety, sweating and nervousness, leading to repeating the process until I actually get a job, then I work like a dog doing the work of two or more and usually get frustrated, I never made much money.
The physical assaults I endured were dismissed.
My mother’s rape and beating, dismissed, it resulted in seizures, she lost motor control and speech ability, getting worse until she was half paralyzed, she spent the last 10 years of her life in nursing care until police killed her.
My wife a heroin addict before we met one night killed herself despite being clean and happily married, she had endured a father who I later discovered from her half sisters was a molester.
I lost my daughter to the poisoning effects of internet, illegal drugs entering this country and her demise, completely missed because 12 house Mercury secrets, fills me with rage.
When I brought my older brother to the hospital he was in bad shape, they began care measures, when he was having a stroke he was ignored, he was wrongly judged and left for dead. He survives as a helpless patient in nursing care.
When I built a business, promoted on social media, spending on advertisement, providing credentials, giving it my all just to find my public political party affiliation allowed them to hide my advertisements.

When the President of the United States of America performs lawlessly, endangering Americans and is not brought to justice, having weaponized and politicized law, making enemies of his own people and unable to spiritually guide through proper leadership and admittedly becomes obsessed with the former President, I become the spiritual enemy.
I channel my spirit into Joe Biden and I guard Donald Trump from my mistakes because I owe the world an apology for not knowing or seeing what I was, running amok defending principles and keeping it inside, I warned I have grown beyond knowledge and now comprehend, my eyes are open, it is not the power I have problems with it is the technology and applications I am using to express I have difficulty with.

I do not want your pity, I want to show you I can write, I want to share my visions and imagination and the guy that was suppressed, who never called for war, never assaulted, only defended, like everyone who must work and face daily challenges understanding feelings need be put aside and do the best one can. I need nor want anything from you and must at least try my works and leave something behind because like you, I existed. Controlling myself has been my main focus as humanity cries, I cry with you, it took all I had to believe in God again, to believe in myself again, however I fear what I found along the way and when I embraced it, accepted it, I felt its galvanizing effect. The things seen and understood are not of common understanding nor the ways people recognize today, they are ancient and the humanity I felt across generations was something wonderful.
I attract what I wish, I bring horror into this world unknowingly and am feeling responsible for never having done anything. I do not have time to write a great novel, I see how the current quality of time and the reaction of evil people only make my job that much more difficult.

I had a lot of love, to give it back to God is to give it away to all of you.
I am dangerous and not to be envied or jealous of, it will only eat you alive, injustices toward me, upsetting me brings out justice and ruin.

This self understanding has led me here as I am not a politician, lawyer, businessman, entertainer, soldier, author, singer. I missed all the opportunities until it was too late, all the love now only struggles with what little time I have left.

When I see people becoming free and empowered from their own prisons, it makes me happy, when they parade it in front of my face, I look away, their lifestyle is of no interest to me, when you mess with the children and teach them perversion and hate, you become my enemy.

When one murders. When many murder. That is my enemy.

Last night I felt the ability to gift aegis to those in law enforcement having had to overcome an old deep wound I was unaware was hurting my soul, I mistook it for legal, administrative irritation.

I’ve no interest in being a public figure, the image I used was years old.
I’d rather be left alone, enjoying my freedom to pursue life liberty and happiness, I only wish peace, love and happiness.

I pray I learn to balance this energy soon. Discipline is required.

Laying of hands is what is required, I am fine with handshakes, one is for the giving, the other for receiving, I do not trust those who grab an arm, they take. I give only to those I seem worthy, I do not even wish to see the face, hear the voice or know of my enemies it is poison, in this manner I do not even like to be touched. Try that on for size, it is not easy being like this, knowing opens the doors of horror and I must accept that.

I never cared for twittering, all I saw were people parroting and lip service, gossip, I severely dislike the others, I chose X, however X does not like WordPress, had I known, I would not have done so, mistakes are my favorite game to play, figuring out how to make the best out of the mistakes and decisions of others. I do not have time to be polite all day toward someone who wants to take my money for nothing rendered, access my personal information, download applications that reveal my finances of which I can not accept terms of.

[edit – I was nearly finished]
Nikki Haley is on TV, at first I really liked the idea of her becoming President, considering Trump’s embattled situation, a strong candidate, seeing injustice and demanding it stop, seeing the phenomenon of Trump and reinstating my faith in him, then I felt I’d love to see her become VP, she ruined that, what is her problem? I wanted to see her as VP for Trumps next couple terms and President following that, Vivek Ramaswamy possibly VP with her and crush the dis-eased Democrat party for years. Well how far do I envision? I can do this for thousands of years if it were humanly possible. Ron DeSantis, Florida needs you and I would hope you remain Governor for as long as possible.

To add, I was typing so fast, mistaking shift/enter apparently duplicating every block I had typed, what a horrible feature, this post became a mess, I began editing and managed to delete a lot, I do not know what was lost, I did my best to clean it up, I think I have said enough today.

This is why I am blogging. -dbtrine