It is with great sadness that when I channel now all I feel is Anger and Rage from the One I know as LOVE.
It screams and this is what it wants you to know:

Hey
I’m your life
I’m the one who takes you there
Hey
I’m your life
I’m the one who cares
They
They betray
I’m your only true friend now
They
They’ll betray
I’m forever there

I’m your dream, make you real
I’m your eyes when you must steal
I’m your pain when you can’t feel
Sad but true

I’m your dream, mind astray
I’m your eyes while you’re away
I’m your pain while you repay
You know it’s sad but true
Sad but true

You
You’re my mask
You’re my cover, my shelter
You
You’re my mask
You’re the one who’s blamed
Do
Do my work
Do my dirty work, scapegoat
Do
Do my deeds
For you’re the one who’s shamed

I’m your dream, make you real
I’m your eyes when you must steal
I’m your pain when you can’t feel
Sad but true

I’m your dream, mind astray
I’m your eyes while you’re away
I’m your pain while you repay
You know it’s sad but true
Sad but true

I’m your dream
I’m your eyes
I’m your pain

I’m your dream
I’m your eyes
I’m your pain
You know it’s sad but true

Hate
I’m your hate
I’m your hate when you want love
Pay
Pay the price
Pay, for nothing’s fair

Hey
I’m your life
I’m the one who took you there
Hey
I’m your life
And I no longer care

I’m your dream, make you real
I’m your eyes when you must steal
I’m your pain when you can’t feel
Sad but true

I’m your truth, telling lies
I’m your reason, alibis
I’m inside, open your eyes
I’m you

Sad but true

I felt it long before most going on for 16+ years now, you didn’t like me, not since 1995, hell let’s take it all the way back to when I was born because that is closer to the Truth.

Here is what it is, I have been all over these United States and I loved it so much, to travel, to feel the Earth, noble metals when I found something to touch to remember, because that is all I ever felt there was, because we all die and if we can hold on to anything, it would be the memories, the snapshots, the emotions. Sure there are the built, written, created things we leave behind…
You ruin what is left to hold on to, you threaten me, now you have killed me.
I am already dead.
This sentiment is now what everyone must feel. Sure, I stopped writing the book, this matters little, the seeds already planted, was going to jump out here into the world and be myself, take some jabs, post a few politically funny things I had written down, but the immense power to say something and be heard, it dawned on me, I existed, like you.
I am not to be silenced, unsure what happened next, but as I shared this, I was mocked.
Then cancelled.
Now I am threatened daily.
I found your little game, actually it was shown to me, they want to show me more, because they want to make sure they know who I am. There are some secrets you never tell anyone, did my best to instill this in my daughter, I don’t believe we ever spent as much as two complete months in each others company. My sentiment today is one of complete disgust, it’s getting worse out there, I know, I watch news all day. You want me to fear, you want me to be sad, you want me to be riddled with anxiety. You wish I hurt myself, let me assure you, I have endured these things my entire life, I am coping just fine. Call me delusional, you are mistaken, I am the Dreamer and when I am done there is little hope left, you will have to rely on the next in line, let me tell you, there are none left and I can not make another, you’ve taken everything already and I am dying, and so with me will my dream.

I was small, every day into the city, deliveries need be made to the skyscrapers, giant shining towers of strength, power and money. I loved them, loved buildings, monuments, massive bridges, I would beg mom to take us to the Twin Towers, Statue of Liberty, Flushing Meadows, I was young, but I understood all of this was mine, I have always known this. It would be forty years before I got to walk in the places I dreamed, my last visit to New York was sad, I have eaten better frozen pizza, I make a better pizza from scratch. The place was as bad as when I had last seen it in the early 80’s, filth and garbage, someone took my phone, people walked into me, well I got the phone back for $5 tip as they took pictures of us, they nearly got killed, my leather jacket kept our other belongings safe. I blame New Yorkers for letting it get like that, what you let it come to since, is all deserved. I will wash your subways, streets and dwellings, for that is the Dreamer, I am referring to Neptune, ah you laugh, here he goes, a planet… Poseidon and like those who called on God in the past, to cry of injustices I will cry of injustices, remember the gym teacher, nearly broke my neck threatening to kill me, the school administrators who laughed at and called me a liar. If I lie, I face Ruin, for Neptune and Antares will surely make me a scoundrel, I have known this for a very long time, dad beat it into me, it was not long after the gym teacher incident, he died, I did nothing, he and his wife and their new born died in a crash, in the very car he tried to break my neck, twisting my head, knee to by back, his spit in my face, the filth of his upholstery, the looseness of the body panel, it was hard and stinging across my face, I vowed I would kill him, he let me go, I ran through the woods, I ran home, my face bloodied, my dog my only friend and we sat under the bushes, he licked my face. I may suffer aphasia, but I recall my life and the places I have been, these places now fall away from beneath my feet and become no more. I am from Long Island, have been to New York, Canada, Vermont, New Hampshire, Maine, Rhode Island’s Block Island, Connecticut, Massachusetts, New Jersey, Pennsylvania, Minnesota, Wisconsin, Illinois, Iowa, Missouri, Kansas, Arkansas, Texas, Louisiana, Georgia, North Carolina, Arizona, Nevada, California and I know Florida like the back of my hand.
I love Geology and Geography. I have connected to everything.

Had passed through many other states, but I had stayed in all those mentioned.
Have stayed in Mexico, Bahamas, Puerto Rico and ‘You Better Belize It!’

Knowing what these places feel like on my skin, breathing the scent of their air and feel of the people, having touched parts of the Earth and will never forget. There are plants far older than I adored and may wish all of these away, all these things, all these places, all these people, for I no longer care, because you ruin and kill. For your crimes, the debt is irredeemable, I may not have been happy, but I was not miserable, I was grateful for life and thanked God always, I am a man of few sins and I, unless provoked was always kind to others, a joker, not a prankster, I made people smile and laugh, because I never had much to give, but I always had my wit and positivity, that was hard forged in Hell throughout my entire life, for I may not escape some things. You do not understand why I keep explaining myself, I am the narrator and it is difficult for me as well. I can tell you the worse I get, the worse I feel, the worse it will be on all of you.
Surprise! I believe in natural remedies, I believe in diet, nutrition, exercise, friendships, community, my nation, the world, but you have revealed this is nothing to rely on or believe in any longer, so it shall be, it is no more, we now face the great undoing, it is what will be, I always felt it as the Recycling, knowing how the Earth functions, knowing it is getting hotter, nothing humanity has done at all, it is natural, it will get hot, it will vent, it will get very cold, maybe even freeze over, but these things take a long time, once you’ve seen it, you really can not unsee it, it is simply understood. It is Sunday afternoon, for all the good in it, I now despise humanity, it can burn, flood, be swept away, crushed, starved, thirst, hunger and want, this is how it ends, you do to each other as you wish, murder, war, I do not care, this is my gift for all of you.

That was Sunday, had not wished to post it, Monday came and went, it is Tuesday, no longer processing the anger and rage, it is compartmentalized, locked in a place no one may go. I sat Sunday night I thought on my enemies and I was full of electricity, not understanding until it revealed itself and new understanding came with it, the ancient cities destroyed, the flood, the Christ, everything moves so fast now, the Sky God Ur and Cronus with Gaia showing me they are the foundation and they are the workings, to look to God and know he is, the Holy Trinity, I saw Him he is All the Gods, He bears the Helmet so that I may not see Him, the Shield so that I may not rebel, the Sword that I may be slayed and at His feet I was slain to rise again. I wept and Lightning went forth from me.

I have been disconnected, manna low, I must heal, the Death leaking from my Skull, reeking and filthy, putrid, my eye no longer Blind, the Evil Vanquished. Terror rose up in me, what was it? And I knew. For I had become that Beast and it was time for It to Die and I knew, with it, went the Knowledge I held.

It has been an Honor to Serve the Lord, to be Trusted, for He sees and knows All, but is a Spiritual Being, I felt empty relieved of heavy burden, the Sins I refuse to live, the horrors I have witnessed, have been reported, I am left to Fill My Soul with that I had Wished for and I wept again, forgiven.

Success will be the Revenge and so it is, RNC, GOP, DJT and MAGA having raised nearly $200M by now, Patriots now well aware of the game they play. So much so, with the tilt of Power they may write new rules and change the game as they will.

Maybe now it will be understood by All.

What of myself? -you may ask, will I understand? The things I know and do, what I believe in, are the preservation of your history and culture, I aim to remove this dark time from our lives and the people responsible as well as their beliefs.

They do not wish me to continue, would rather I write my horrors and accept their wealth, keep my head down, stop invoking ancient powers, I will not, for God knows me and stands by me, before me, behind me, within me and we are One.

I am a Storm, a wild and global reckoning, it has always been.

You wished I were relieved of all my rights and civil liberties, downtrodden, depressed, suppressed, however the Minotaur, had waited, the Bull you penned has become the Demigod you fear, the Snake/Scorpion has learned to fly, an Eagle that was not Free now rages as the Phoenix, the Servant you depended on knowingly becomes the Healer and now rages as an Angel, it’s Fiery Sword lashes, it’s Shield repels, it’s Breastplate bears the Sign of God, it’s Helmet bearing Horns, yet you may not see it high above the Horizon any longer, this is now the way, the fantastic Beast is risen, shown you the Truths you left trampled on the ground and has begun the Judgement, it sees you, it is in you, you did not stand down, you did not correct the wrongs, you still LIE, MURDER AND DECEIVE THE PEOPLE AND FOR THIS YOU WILL BE RUINED.

You merely needed to stop and come to the table to effect a conclusion.

I run with soldiers now, tanks, aircraft, ships and missiles, I will be in All Things, I choose the Victor, I choose the History that Will Be Written, So Be It. -This is the will of God, this is all I hear now, it saddens me, there is no comfort only Justice.

Would I rather write what I wish? -yes, with all of my heart and soul, I can not, it IS sad but true.